<sigh…>
i dont know why but this day started in one of the most tiring way possible…i had to get up at 6 in the morning to do the laundry…
i dont feel good about something…or better yet someone… there`s this person whom i care so much about… let us call that person “sesame”..and let us assume that sesame is a guy…hehehe
well, sesame is a very likable person…he is kind, generous and really a good person… i used to see him as someone almost perfect… but then, this past few weeks… i began to see who he really is… that what other people say about him is actually true.. i used to deny that to myself… but then, even eyes closed, i can see and feel his true identity… it pains me a lot that he is like that… but still, he is a friend… i know i wont be able to change him… and if ever i will try… i would have to hurt him first before i could let him know what im seeing… but i can no longer stay the same with sesame… reality hurts… sometimes, it kills something important… utmost care and love perhaps….
i tried to be blind for more than two weeks… but what he did opened my eyes wide… that he doesn’t give a damn as long as he gets what he wants… i tried to reason out for him… but all the possible reasons seemed dull… and finally, ive accepted the truth.. it hurts but i have to face it… then i`ll be able to move on and not be hurt anymore…
i hope things will somehow workout…
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