what really is my purpose? i used to think that my purpose is to bring luxury and happiness to my mom, dad and my brother. i thought it’ll be enough, that i’ll be happy and content when or if i’ll be able to accomplish all those material dreams. but then, i now know better. yes, i’ll be happy, very happy if i’ll be able to give my family everything they want and need. but, i know there’s something missing, that that happiness is, like what pia said, an ampao– hollow.
i thought i won’t be able to find what will fill that emptiness. but then, HE found me.i was lost in a world of darkness and treasures that make men greedy, and i was slowly becoming one of them, but suddenly, HE touched the top of my head, i was blinded by HIS Light, but then, He told me not to be afraid, because i am now safe, that no one will be able to hurt me, to make me like those men whose souls will burn eternally in hell– if, only if, they won’t change and follow him instead.
then, we walked hand in hand in what seems to be a forest, with wild animals looking at us, deers come near us, birds sang very soothing melodies, lions bow down and give way, all of them giving out happiness contained within innocence. but then, there was fire! and human beings laughing, their faces like the devil himself! i was frightened, just like all the wild animals around me, but then, HE held my hand tighter, and told me not to be frightened, then HE wiped the tears that i didn’t rememberflowing down my cheeks, and HE smiled. And then, there was warmth, and i felt safe. yes, nothing can harm me, i am with the LORD! and so suddenly, the fire vanished along with the men, and there, once again, is peace and tranquility i never thought possible.
then, we were walking, still hand in hand in a desert, yet it wasn’t hot.it was actually cool and feels good on the skin. the land or sand actually, has no living thing on it– no animals or plants, and i became lonely. and once again, HE tightened HIS grip on my hand and told me to look at my side– and there it is! a small wild flower! HE said i am that flower. i thought HE meant i am the wild flower because like it, i am alone in a vast land of nothingness, but i was wrong. HE said, like that wild flower which brought warmth, happiness, faith and hope to me, i should also bring those great feelings to other people. so, i had a deeper purpose– to be GOD’s way to save HIS children from hopelessness.
HE smiled at me, and suddenly we were surrounded by angels, each holding a wild flower. i understood, like the angels, i should help HIM guide HIS people towards HIS Kingdom. and also to worship and bring back to HIM everything HE’s done by doing good in HIS name.
TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!!!….=)
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