well, it has been a very long week and it is still lengthening, promising more sleepless nights… im thinking about something quite wrong… i had been assessing myself and i found that i actually welcome pain, and i mean  welcome it….

i have been having this strange liking for feeeling something painful…a wound, cut, anything that causes me to literally bleed… it makes me feel better in some way i couldn’t really understand….its really weird… maybe i’ll get over it someday….i hope im still alive by that time…hahaha…

well, i guess that’s so emo…hihihi…

 

pain is the only way of peace

silence is what my heart bleeds

no moonlight to lighten the darkness i fear

there’s only me and the blood i feel…